sometimes

sometimes I want to whisper every rude rude word that I know in your ear.
sometimes I start talking to you about anything at all, just to talk to you.
sometimes I wish you never knew who I was and what I did.
sometimes I think I'm invisible.
sometimes only you get me.
sometimes I would like to read your mind.
sometimes I want to walk up to you and scream in your face "Let's get the fuck out of here!".
sometimes I dream I can fly.
sometimes I'm a complete and utter insecure, paranoid wreck.
sometimes I smile for no reason whatsoever.
sometimes the ghosts of what I had run their fingers down my spine.
sometimes I am not original.
sometimes I forgive.
sometimes I want to turn to the last page.
sometimes I would want you to read my mind.
sometimes I put walls around myself just to see who cares enough to break them down.
sometimes I am rude to you without it being your fault.
sometimes I forget.
sometimes you don't get me at all.
sometimes I just want to give you the hug you'll never admit you need.
sometimes I must rewind to go forward.
sometimes I wish for things I don't need.
sometimes I drive myself nuts.